Wednesday, August 22, 2012

[authentic worship]

 

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Not everything feels like a gift from God.  But I’m learning that if I count gifts on a daily basis, the things that don’t seem like gifts, actually are.  It’s easy to thank God for things like my family, food on our table, our home, a beautiful sunny day, words of encouragement from a friend, etc.  But what about thanking him for the two boys in my son’s gym class who think it’s fun to pick on him for being smaller?  Or the times when my life feels small and insignificant – when it seems the most important thing I did all day was start and finish the laundry?  At first glance, it’s easy to miss those circumstances as gifts.  But the bullying in gym class is a gift because it teaches my son courage in the face of adversity and reliance on God when he feels alone.  No, it’s not fun to endure the ridicule of others, but when he claims the truths of scripture – “I command you – be strong and courageous!  Do not be afraid or discouraged.  For the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.” (Joshua 1:9) – as he walks out the door in the morning … is that not a gift?  And those times when I am lonely and I wonder if there will ever be more to my life than laundry and dishes and chores … those are gifts as well!  Because it’s in those moments that God reminds me that when I serve my family, I serve Him.  It’s when I’m feeling low because I see other people doing “big things” in the world that God whispers how important motherhood is to him.  That he sees me and knows me.  That I do not work in vain.  That I’m applauded by an audience of One.

…everything is a gift from God!

That’s authentic worship.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

[beauty]

 

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Beauty is about

authenticity not applause

character not cosmetics

thoughtfulness not thinness

modesty not modeling

purity not perfection

kindness not keeping up

reality not running away

wisdom not wildness

servanthood not sexiness

influence not imitation

unmasking not masking

being you not being theirs

(from the MODSquad.com blog 4/12)

 

Oh how I pray for the heart of my girl … that she would embrace what beauty is, not what it isn’t.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

1st day of school!

 

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Yesterday was the first day of school for our family!  I shared recently about some of my fears in regards to this new school year and so I thought I’d take this opportunity to share some of the things I wrote in my gratitude journal yesterday:

#2361 … for the reminder to my children on the eve of their 1st day of school to put on the armor of God

#2362 … for prayers and time in the Word as a family

#2363 … for the expectation of seeing God at work

#2364 … for a sweet time of prayer and fellowship before bed with my sweet girl who was so full of worry

#2365 … for being able to physically see the worry leave her as I prayed over her

#2366 … for four simple words – “I trust you God!”

#2367 … for the note left on the kitchen counter before school from brother to sister, assuring her of prayers and love

#2368 … for fresh tears on my face as I say goodbye for the day

#2369 … for knowing they’ll return

#2370 … for peace in knowing they’re in God’s care

#2371 … for a morning alone with my Love

#2372 … for a sushi lunch with my forever date

#2373 … for good reports and successful days for all three

#2374 … for the gift of lunch buddies for both boys

#2375 … for hearing Katelyn tell of how God answered her prayers

God is faithful, my friends!

Thursday, August 9, 2012

[her hair]

It’s been been almost two years since she’s had a haircut.  This week, however, this precious girl got a new look … and in the process she was able to donate her cut hair to an organization that makes wigs for cancer patients.  Win-win situation!

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Wednesday, August 8, 2012

[only God]

 

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I feel as though I’m bursting with excitement over the things God is teaching me lately and the ways he is caring for my heart.  You see, my kids go back to school next week, which is always a difficult time for this Momma who truly prefers to have her little birdies close to the nest, so to speak.  This year feels particularly hard in part because Andrew starts high school, Matthew starts middle school and it is the first year that we have three kids in three different schools.  There are days when this stage of our family feels overwhelming … when I wish I could just put the brakes on and slow life down a bit.

Through it all … the depression I’ve struggled with this summer, the anxiety about the unknown, the anticipation of a different sort of normal … God has been faithful!  He’s given me verses, songs, devotionals, books, messages at church and conversations with friends and family that have calmed my heart and fears at exactly the right moment.

And I am so grateful!

A few weeks ago, when I was in the midst of a particularly low point, he gave me Isaiah 42:16…

I will lead blind Israel down a new path, guiding them along an unfamiliar way.  I will make the darkness bright before them and smooth out the road ahead of them.  Yes, I will indeed do these things; I will not forsake them.

What made this verse so significant to me is the fact that it specifically spoke to some of my biggest fears for sending the kids to school (specifically high school) …

newness

unfamiliarity

the darkness of a large, public high school

the possibility for trials

In the less than a minute it took for me to read those words, my fears were exposed and the truth of who God is and what he wants to do in the lives of my kids was illuminated.  I won’t say that I still don’t have moments of panic, but I feel so much more at peace (thus the verse I chose for the photo above) with our situation.

Only God…